"I grew up watching shows like this," she recalled. "I would sit at home wide-eyed and watch artists in these beautiful gowns and handsome suits, like, stroll up the stairs to the stage and they would hold up these awards and they were usually gold-plated and shiny and weighted, these, like, metaphors, these trophies that were supposed to be some kind of validation for the soul-crushing and heartache-inducing work that they put into writing a song and bringing it to life.
"To be honest with you, I really believed that fairy tale," she continued, "I believed these awards. When I was a kid, I used to believe that this award was the ultimate validating and that I'd come up here and laugh and cry and my fans at home would rejoice because we accomplished this thing together."
The AMAs, on the other hand, she values because of their fan input (since 2006, winners have been determined by a poll of the public, voted through the AMAs website). "I am so thankful to the AMAs because they're the largest fan-voted award show," she said. "And I'm thankful to the fans because they're the people who really give a shit about music and I'm thankful to the AMAs for giving those people a voice."
She added, "I'm going to keep making music for them and for us. Sometimes you grow up and the stuff you believed in starts to lose its magic but music never does because real fans, real artists, and real stories keep that music alive."
Well, this is going to be awkward when she wins a Grammy in 2020. Anyway, Halsey looked fabulous rocking bleached eyebrows, a geometric chignon/top-knot hybrid and an endless waterfall of Marc Jacobs ruffles. Congrats!