Since January, there's been speculation that longtime lovebirds makeup mogul Jeffree Star and partner Nathan Schwandt have broken up. Most recently, the rumors began because Star cancelled his European masterclass tour days, and were further fuelled when the YouTuber removed "wifey of Nathan" in his Instagram bio. Now, Jeffree confirms that he and Schwandt are no longer together.
On Saturday, Star tweeted, "The hardest part has been waking up and he's not laying next to me anymore.. But I'm a tough bitch and 2020 is going to be my year." He also uploaded an emotional video entitled "We Broke Up," in which he explains how his five-year relationship ended "a few weeks ago." "There's no easy way to say this," he said. "We're both in a state of shock. I'm devastated. I'm so sad."
The hardest part has been waking up and he's not laying next to me anymore.. But I'm a tough bitch and 2020 is going to be my year.— Jeffree Star (@Jeffree Star) 1578765210.0
"I feel like I owe you all an explanation because Nathan and I have grown with each other in front of all of you and I can't believe he's not here right now. But I do want to share what's been going on," he continued. "I'm grateful for him, and I'll be grateful until the day I die, because this was the only man that was ever confident enough to love me publicly, to love me for me fully, all my flaws, no makeup waking up in bed to full-on — he never cared about any of it, he just loved me for me."
It seems that there's still a lot of love between the two exes. So why did they break up? "We haven't processed our dogs fully because this lifestyle is so crazy and we're always on to the next thing," Star said in the video. In October last year, the couple's dog Daddy Star passed away. "We were both so busy being there for each other that we forgot to be here for ourselves, and that's what 2020 is — focusing on ourselves."
Another factor in their breakup, according to Star, was the online celebrity's fame. "He never wanted to be famous, he never wanted to be in the spotlight, he never wanted attention, but he loved and believed in everything I was doing and was a part of it because I asked him to," he explained. "My life is so public and I think it just got to a breaking point where it just wasn't healthy."
And given the very public nature of their relationship, there were also rumors that the pair have been faking it, and this was something that bothered Schwandt. "I have really thick skin, I can take a lot, but I think it really wears you down when you're in love with someone and all you hear is he's with you for the money, he's this, he's that," Star said. "He met me when I had nothing and he never changed and that's what I loved the most is he stayed true to who he was."
The blogger concluded the breakup video, saying, "I can't wait to get back to doing what I love and creating and Jeffree Star Cosmetics has so many amazing things to look forward to this year — I'm just so excited. Even though I'm so sad I'm ready to get back to work."
Watch the whole 17-minute video below.
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