Bella Thorne is no stranger to opening up about her private life, and that's precisely what she's done via a brave, new poem posted to her Instagram.
For the past week, Thorne has been teasing poems from her book, The Life of a Wannabe Mogul, and her latest is some of her most revealing and emotional work yet.
While exploring her insecurities and need for "validation from everyone but mostly men," Thorne wrote about grappling with the trauma of being a molestation survivor.
"All I want is him. I want him to hold me, I want him to love me, I want him to tell me it's ok, I want him to look me in the eyes and let me know I'm accepted," Thorne wrote, questioning why she feels the need to be in a relationship to be happy. "Why? Because I can't accept myself."
Thorne then goes on to wonder why she can't "just look for the next me," "find me, and accept me."
"Was it because I was molested my whole life," she continued. "Exposed to sex at such a young age it's all I know how to offer to the world...or is it because I was raised to think I wasn't good enough. Not good enough for her or anything else."
However, Thorne goes on to say that she doesn't blame "anyone" or her childhood for "what's happening to me right now," before mulling upon the realization that she needs to work toward loving herself, rather than trying to "find a cheat code" in the form of other people's love and approval.
"Right now I only hurt...but I'm not hurting for other people no I'm only hurting myself. By not loving me and by not accepting me," Thorne wrote, before adding, "Usually these free handed writing bits..they have an end, but I don't have an end. I'm still figuring it out as always."
She then asks if it's "ok to know what your end goal Is but absolutely no way or idea how to achieve it."
"It's probably not but I can only start by accepting it," Thorne concluded, alongside the hashtag #thelifeofawannabemogul. "This poem is about mommy and daddy and me and you."
