"I don't want to be dark, but I genuinely didn't think I would make it to 17," Eilish said, before recalling one incident in Berlin when she was alone in her hotel room.
"I remember there was a window right there," she shared, before adding that the only thing that stopped her was thinking of her mom. "I remember crying because I was thinking about how the way that I was going to die was, I was going to do it."
That said, Eilish said that she's felt stronger in the last six months as she began to "come out of" her depression — to the point where she's now actively trying to help fans feeling the same way.
"I just grab them by the shoulders and I'm like, 'Please take care of yourself and be good to yourself and be nice to yourself,'" she said. "'Don't take that extra step and hurt yourself further.'"
Watch Eilish's entire interview, below.
If you or someone you know needs help today, call the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1-800-273-8255.