Queen of genuine candidness, Adele Blue Adkins, has landed herself another shimmering cover, this time on Vanity Fair.
The divine chanteuse kept it remarkably real (as always) about her struggles with postpartum depression following the birth of her son Angelo in 2012, as well as commending women who choose to not have children.
The 28-year-old iconic singer, whose recent album 25 continues to dominate the charts a year after its release, revealed that when she discovered she was pregnant (with partner Simon Konecki), she worried she'd made the "worst decision of her life." Adele was wrought with anxiety and depression following his birth:
My knowledge of postpartum – or postnatal, as well call it in England – is that you don't want to be with your child; you're worried you might hurt your child, you're worried you weren't doing a good job. But I was obsessed with my child. I felt very inadequate, I felt like I'd made the worst decision of my life… it can come in many different forms.
After finding support through therapy, and other friends/mothers, Adele realized she was not alone in these anxieties, which helped keep it at bay. With her son now four-years-old, Adele has found an honest system to maintain her sanity:
Eventually I just said, I'm going to give myself an afternoon a week, just to do whatever the f**k I want without my baby. A friend of mine said, 'Really? Don't you feel bad?' I said, I do but not as bad as I'd feel if I didn't do it.
The singer also spoke on society's unfair expectations of women to be mothers, even when it's not what they want; she commended the bravery of women who choose to not have children.
I think it's the bravest thing not to have a child; all my friends and I felt pressurized into having kids because that's what adults do. I love my son more than anything. but on a daily basis, if I have a minute or two, I wish I could do whatever the fuck I wanted, whenever I want. Every single day I feel like that.
She also touched on her past albums and songwriting abilities, which she credits with heavy drinking and in her single, unattached days:
I can see from an outsider's perspective that I will never write songs as good as the ones that are on 21, but I'm not as indulgent as I was then and I don't have time to fall apart like I did then.I was completely off my face writing that album and a drunk tongue is an honest one. I would drink two bottles of wine and I would chain-smoke. Then I'd write the lyrics down and the next morning think, 'F**k, that's quite good.' Then I'd find a melody. But since I've had my baby, I'm not as carefree as I used to be.